Nothing hurts more than when someone tells you they aren't in love with you anymore. It hurts even more, when you pretend that it doesn't matter. Telling them that you feel the same way even though your world is falling apart. This person promised you that it was different that they really wanted to be in this. You don't push. You let them come to you. None of this was your idea. Why does it have to hurt so much? It's not fair. Why are you being played like this? How can someone tell you they love you one day and then the next wake up and realize they don't? Why do people do this? Don't they know how much it hurts? Do they not understand how hard it is to get over someone, and then have to do it all over again within a matter of a couple weeks? Do they not understand what it does to a person's self-esteem? To their life?
Even people who think very highly of themselves go through a sort of depression. You don't feel like you are good enough, you're sad, you think things are hopeless. At the moment I'm going through this. The difference between this time and the last is that I know I am a bigger, stronger person. I know I can get through this. No matter how hard it is. I'm not bashing the other person. They may have done wrong, but I think I did something worse by letting myself believe it was different. Maybe I just needed this to know that there is no reason to love someone who isn't going to love me back. The biggest thing though, is that I know how much it hurts to have someone toy with you, and I will never do that to anyone. It is a horrible experience, but I'm almost glad I'm going through this. It makes me stronger. Knowing I can bounce back is one of the only good things about this. I know that there is someone out there that will appreciate me. I just haven't found them yet. Thankfully, I'm in no hurry.
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